we started talking about our insane responsibilities that we have on our plates right now. we also pondered as to why we were ok and not falling a part.
for those who may not know. our life is a bit like this:
we have no house. we live in an empty town house with 1 suitcase each. we have 1 table and chair, sleep on a borrowed bed and 1 nasty couch.
chris works an intense job with corrections canada. i stay home with out son.
we are the children's pastors at our church. we have had 4 huge events to plan/prepare for this month alone.
we are to be out of this townhouse on Oct 31.
we leave for my sister's wedding in Florida Oct 31
we have no move in date
we have to plan, prepare, organise a Halloween party for 50+ kids. we will also have to find someone to run it bec we will be out of the country.
we have a church conference to plan for. i have already spent 60+ hrs this week alone
we have a fall fest for this weekend
we have our regular children's ministry commitments on top of this.
oh, have i failed to mention that i have no supplies with me? no planners, programs, books,paper, pencils, zip. all of my office supplies are sitting in a trailer
oh, we are also building a house. ha.hahaha.
everyone wants chris's time. everyone.
that is not to feel sorry for us. it's more of a ...."why are we not falling a part yet"? our days are so full. but we are still connected. how is this possible?
so, i said to chris "when god closes a door, he opens a window" to which he replied "god will not give you more than you can handle" then i said " to each there is a season" to which chris said "aren't these religious cliche's stupid?"
i agree. which lead up to talk about the single most annoying quote.
"the lord gives, the lord takes away, bless his holy name."
this is my biggest pet peeve. first of all GOD DID NOT SAY IT!
JOB DID. JOB. JOB. JOB. NOT GOD
god does NOT take things away. job said it in a state that most ppl would have already quit.
god gets the shaft all the time. he gets the blame for all the bad stuff that happens. but where is the praise during the good?
which lead me to think about deut. it's clear. most ppl remember god during the BAD times. they cry out, beg, plead, beg some more and blame god. what happens during the good? god is usually back in the box. waiting until the next problem.
i was reading awhile back about remembering god during the harvest. during the great times, when we have money, good food, happy marriages, cribs with babies in them. how often do we stop and say "thanks, you rule"
why would god remind us to be in constant communication with him? esp during the good times? i think for a few reasons.
1- we don't 'need' him-we can do it on our own
2-if we stay in communication with him at all times, we won't fall a part during the bad
3-can't remember the 3rd one (remember i type when natey naps, i have to be fast!)
sooo. why are chris and i still standing during this season? it's been very hard the last few weeks. i know we will come out of this NOT bec ppl encourage us but bec i have not lost contact with god and chris.
sure we fight, argue, slap each other (kidding...well i have been known to slap him) but most important. chris and i are even closer than we were last month.
i am so grateful for the ideas that have come to me, the words at the right time, the endurance to keep going. god is always good. even when we have no money, are sick, toddlers driving us crazy, dishes on the counter, a messy house, no place to live in 3 wks, no suitcase to pack for the wedding.....i chose to remember that god has not forgotten me. where i am, he's also there.
i am not alone.
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