an imaginary threat

i love to reread a story and discover something new, but what's even more wonderful is discovering a new take on that same old story. and an even better bonus is getting slapped and the chance to grow more on a spiritual level

i reread the jacob/rachel story again

i have learnt SO much from this girl

quick back story on rachel

rachel is married to jake who is also married to leah, aka rach's SISTER (imagine!)
rachel only want to be a happy housewife with a boat load of kiddo's; but is unable to have all those children
leah's quiver is over flowing with kids

but lets leave those girls and look at jakey

jake has a brother, his name is esau. many yrs before, jake STOLE his brother's birth right...aka...all of daddy's good stuff...how that all went down is another story

jake and esau separate and live their own lives apart (like hello, i would too if my sister stole my blessing!)

the time came for them to meet up after all this time

jake decided to "patch" things up with his bro by sending him gifts...you know to smooth things over and make peace ...and to save himself from getting killed

then he hears that esau IS coming for a visit!
and he's bringing 400 ppl with him...400! that is A LOT of ppl!

jake freaks out. thinking he's a dead man. 400 men! they are coming to destroy him and his family and everything that he has worked SO hard for. his dreams, his life, his future. it's all about to be taken away

or is it?

in jake's eyes it was destruction

in reality is was a welcoming committee

"esau ran to meet jake, and embraced him, and fell on his neck (that's closeness at it's finest) and kissed him, and they wept"

my lesson

i think sometimes in life, esp in interpersonal relationships/friendships we (i) tend to miss read information, circumstances...when we don't have the relationship with a person, we use our feelings to determine the on going's and what not...and with us ladies, a lot of how we perceive a situation is based on our emotions which change by the minute...or worse...i came to terms with...i can rely on my own insecurities to determine how i feel and judge a person on that alone. ouch. not god's way. not his plan and defiantly not his will

my eyes shot open when i read this last night and this morning. instead of relying on me i must rely on god for discernment. not that i read a situation properly but i can miss out on something special, like a new friend or life experience

i must not be afraid of an imaginary threat/presumed enemy, but to trust in god...any hey! maybe even make a new friend along the way!

lesson learnt!

Posted by mel at 2:27 PM