update on me!

as i have shared with you guys. i have been diagnosed with depression and an anxiety/panic disorder

i have taken steps to get better physically. i take an antidepressant, it's the lowest amount you can get and i have to stay on it for 6 months, it is going to raise my serotonin levels to a normal level

i was also given a prescription of sleeping pills to take, enough for 6 months. i took 1/2 a pill for 6 weeks. i used this aid to help retrain my body into sleeping a full night, not waking up to pee and not going back to sleep or worse! getting up to eat! i stopped the sleeping pill, cold turkey 2 weeks ago. i felt that it was time to. and i can proudly say i sleep through the night! little waking! and when i do i go back to sleep!

i have also taken steps in learning the panic coping treatments and have applied them to my life the steps

i have taken to kick this spiritually are the steps that i can see and say have changed me the most! i read a book by beth moore which helped me see some things and i used it as an aid to get back into the word

then i started reading a book called "you are what you think" by david stoop, ph.d he is a clinical psychologist and a born again christian. he uses the word to to train your brain to line up with the word but on a practical level this book is not an easy read. it's full of charts and graphs (chris would love this bad boy) and technical ways to rethink, react and take back control. it has helped me so much! i would totally recommend this book to anyone who has anxiety/panic/bipolar/mental health problems. to make it clear, the book is a tool to help you get off ALL meds and have YOU do some hard work to get better. it is not a book to stay the same or not change i am amazed by how the hold spirit guides me and shows me things i didn't see before or i learn something new take today

i was reading about the lady with the issue of blood. oh how i love her....she has issues....with blood....ewww...ohhhhhh and ick all at once "

and suddenly a lady who had a flow of blood for 12 yrs came from behind him and touched the hem of his garment. for she said to herself " if only i may touch his garment. i shall be made whole"

but jesus turned around and when he saw her he said, "be of good cheer daughter, your faith has made you well" And the woman was well from that hour"

get it! she said to HERSELF! self talk! she opened the door for jesus to heal her by speaking it to herself! if i can just touch his clothing, i WILL be better which brings me to this....

how i self talk myself into allowing the power of god to heal, restore, an amazing marriage, an obedient child, a healthy pregnancy, finances, a great home schooling mom/teacher, a friend, a support to others, a leader etc...

will determine how god chooses to preform them! i know my god is a crazy god, look at all the out of the box miracles he has done! a also noticed that jesus healed her from that hour.

not instantly...i wonder why...maybe he wanted to show her something but she was healed from that hour power is released by what i think!

which leads me to another thought that i don't have time to find out today....david...oh david. crazy naked dancing david....dramatic david (i think quinn is a mini david) david cracks me up, esp in psalms. seriously, he's like on deaths door with nothing and everyone is out to kill him then like 2 verses later he's flying in the sky with god and eating ice cream sundaes david must have been using the psalms to practice his self talk...just a thought, by me, no biblical proof here but it is something i want to study later. when i have time

yesterday p.donny spoke on faith...which lead me to think this:

faith is a life process. what we allow our thoughts to think will release life changing power that will lead us in a positive or negative direction wow. that's me being serious and deep...must stop now and go get some ice cream...yummm have a grand monday everyone!

Posted by mel at 1:16 PM