dentist that ishe's a big boy now and went into the chair all by himself
big boy!
my wonderful hygienist showed nate the ropes nate did great! i did leave the room when the dentist came in, i thought that nate would be better not having me there. sometimes he will refuse to listen if i am around, anyways. after i left nate opened his mouth and the dentist did a full and complete check and clean! he's growing so fast!
toys? who needs toys?
toys? who needs toys?over a month ago, i got a box and turned it into a play house for nate to play with....since then it has been
-a rocket
-a puppet stage
-a slide
-a ramp
-many forts and tents
-a dog house
-a car garage
-a farm
-and more, i know i am forgetting something...
i fear it's becoming a part of out furniture...haha
my dentist experience
i hate the dentist, it's a fear that use to consume me. i am so much better. i can go now and not cry :) my dentist is wonderful and has helped me work through these issues :) i do have a teeny cavity between my teeth and i booked the appointy this monday to get fixed. how far have i grown??
anyways
this year of firsts SUCK. i never know when the next one will come!
i am sitting in the chair this morning and andrea comes in (dental assistant) our convo goes like this...
a- hey, how's it going?
m-good!
a- and how is the baby? you had the baby in april right? last time i saw you you were 16 weeks
m-umm there is no baby, we lost him at 18 wks
a-oh
m-don't worry about it, you didn't know...it's ok..there is really nothing to say
a-i am so sorry
m- :)
then she left the room and i cried
when will this end???
4 comments:
Believe me dear, I was asked the same question a few times, and each time there would be a stabing pain in my heart and a feeling that I was a failure, and yes I would cry.You're hanging in wonderfully my dear, each time this pain comes, don't ignore it, just do what you've been doing, feel it and then cry, cry,cry...
Aunt Shirley
I`m here for you anytime Melanie! I`m just an email, phone call, or short drive away! :) You`re doing everything right. Sometimes we just need to get through one day at a time.
xox
Véronique
man, some days it hit me. the tears start and i do let them fall. then i remember that it's a process and that i am still grieving, it hasn't been a year! time does heal and it helps that i have great family and friends!
thanks both of you's!
Oh Mel! :( It's really hard, isn't it. I am so sorry for your pain and your grief.
xo <3
ps. I saved a really great devotional and healing type book that a friend told me about when I lost our little Babe. I can mail it to you if you like. Just email me your address if you want it.
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