death has nothing on moi!

nate asks me the same question. a lot

"mommy, why do we pray and pray and ask jesus for a baby and we still don't get one?"

this question gets asked at random
usually a few times a week

i use to grit my teeth, smile and give the standard answer
"well, sometimes we pray and it takes time"
or
"sometimes god doesn't give us what we ask for"
or
"i don't know"
or
"go ask your dad"

this am. dripping wet, fresh from the shower i get

"mommy, why doesn't god answer our prayers for a baby?"

today i said "i don't know bud. but what i do know is that no matter what, even if we never, ever, ever get a baby...god still loves us and i trust him"

nate "but i want a baby"
me "so do i. but i won't let that make me sad. we have so much bud" then we talked about all the stuff we do have

as i got dressed to the tunes of "nanananana cat and the had is back....lalalala"

this verse popped into my head

"death is swallowed up in victory
o death, where is your victory?
o death, where is your sting?

thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.

so, my dear brothers and sisters(mel), be strong and immovable. always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless"

death has no victory. here or there or anywhere
death may sting like a bee or a snake but it can't hurt me forever

thank god. thank god. thank god. i do have victory over pain and death and all of life's "this is JUST NOT FAIRNESS"

it just doesn't matter

why?

cause time is tickin. i must be about my father's business
i am strong, immovable, working with a happy heart for god. cause he don't make ni junk and there is not much time left

and

if i am busy (meaning do what god says) i am busy, focused on HIM and what's going on with him

and if i am doing that i can't be sulking or sad about why life just ain't always fair

ha!

meanings are a must!

strong

-having, showing, or able to exert great bodily or muscular power; physically vigorous or robust
mentally powerful or vigorous
-especially able, competent, or powerful in a specific field or respect
of great moral power, firmness, or courage: strong under temptation

immovable

-incapable of being moved
- incapable of being influenced by feeling
-incapable of being moved from one's purpose, opinion
-not subject to change; unalterable.
- not moving; motionless

sure, my plans have changed and i find myself in a new place of life figuring out where and when and how and scared out of my girly pants BUT i am not alone and death has nothing on me

ben was a gift
ben is a gift
ben will always be a gift
i just can't wait to see him again
i can not wait to take nate to the nursery and show him and share with him that god did answer our prayers. god did bring us a baby

now i must get busy and be about my father's work....

(which today is appointments and cleaning :)

Posted by mel at 9:04 AM