thankful!

my son

my pictures have the power to instantly bring me back to where i was in the photo. good and bad

maybe that's why i love photo's so much?

the above pic was taken of nate on the 5th hospital day. it was snapped after a round of guests left

i looked over at chris and said "i love him"

it was the first time i felt this content and  happy thing that i heard so much about

this pic was snapped when nate was about 14 wks old

i believe it was thanksgiving long wkend

he was fussy and having a hard time sleeping

so i went and picked him up out of his bed

put him on my chest where he slept

 i felt, for the first time, after getting through the first 14 wks (which i felt were so hard)

i felt that everything was going to be ok

somehow i would figure out this scary world of motherhood, that i felt so unprepared for

we were going to be ok

my ellie

a whole new chapter

she has made me a morning person (sorta haha). there is nothing like waking up to a cooing baby (who is SOAKING! wet and cold! and hungry!) who greets you with a gummy , sloppy baby smile (those are the best!)

i love these days

i enjoy them so much

 everything will be ok

my birthday

3 yrs ago

i remember having my morning breaky of cake and coffee

getting my gifts (that i was not expecting)

discovering that chris took the day off work so we can hang out

i smiled and thought 'this is the best birthday ever'

i was pregnant with ben

i remember thinking with a secret smile

"my first pic with my boys"

i was about 4 wks pregnant here and i just  knew i was having another boy

(for privacy reasons, i blurred out benjamin's body to those who do not with to see

ben's body)

you will always have a part of my heart, my life, my family.  i carried you, i felt you move and i saw you kick.  i don't question why or how. it doesn't matter. you have taught me so much. i am so thankful to god for you!

a few weeks ago, i broke down. i found myself in my closet, bringing down your little box. i haven't opened it in 3 years

i went through your stuff. your sleeper, your blanket, the cards, notes, emails, appointment cards, hospital bracelets, ultrasound's etc...i saved everything!

as i packed the box back up something fell

your birth card from the hospital

i turned it over

for the first time i saw your tiny foot and hand prints

for 3 yrs they have been in the box and i didn't know it

they are with me now

ben, words can not express how much i am looking forward to seeing you again!

i love you. i am thankful for you!

chris. chris. chris

as much as you annoy the beeps out of me!

drive me nuts with you being you! haha

i am SO thankful that you put up with me and let me be me

i am so so so thankful for you being you. your strength, your support, your love and your red truck

muwahhhh

thankful for you!!!!

hee hee

thankful that we all get along. ha

sisters? how can ppl live with out them?

family!  so thankful!
it is impossible to have a pic of all my family together so this is gonna have to do!!!

so much to be thankful for

i give thanks for what you have done!

Posted by mel at 11:10 AM