due to my intense dislike of the dentist, i found myself awake at 4 this am. i chose to not think/worry/be afraid of the dreaded dentist visit that was just around the corner. instead i thought about silly random things, such as compiling my christmas baking list. then after running our of stuff to think about, i remembered this verse"do not be drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery but instead be filled with the spirit" eph 5:18
or better
"don't destroy your life by getting drunk, but let the spirit fill your life"
which got me to actually think about it. which i have never done before. and before you know it i got it! i now understand this verse. silly isn't it. this is what i came up with at 5 this morning
yrs ago, i was a party girl. oh how i loved a party. oh how i adore drinking and clubbing. it was such fun. planning the night a good week in advance, picking the poison, the location, then the night comes. we would get together to get ready, get stoked with some great tunes, have a few drinks, do each others hair, get dressed, call a club and arrive at the chosen club. there we would drink some more, dance until we could not breath, have another drink or 2 or 3....repeat until the club closes. then separate to party at homes, or go home with some random guy or find some friends to split the cab home with, while grabbing some pizza before we crash somewhere
why did i do it? like very weekend? sure it was fun. often the morning after was spent trying to remember what happened, or putting the pieces together, locating missing friends...
smackeroo. go it. bingo.
i did it to take a mini vacation. drinking makes you feel different. it makes you do things you may not normally do (table dancing) it helps fill a void ( picking up strange dudes) drinking makes your life, for a short time, fun, exciting, happy and burdens forgotten
which lead to the being filled with the spirit part that confused me
then i saw the light. ha. when you are living spirit lead, you should feel/act all the good things that the bible talks about. love, joy, wisdom, freedom. which would cause me to act, behave and do things that i would normally not do.
so instead of dancing on a table...not that i ever would...while drunk...ha. when you are spirit filled i would act like i normally would not. like hug someone i can't stand, do something for someone that i do not like, forgiving someone who totally cause much pain, saying the right words at the right moment... things that i can't do on my own
ahhh such a simple concept and i missed it all these yrs
so knowing this i think it's time i get my partay back, table dancing! bring it on! getting excited to go out with friends, whee! buying that stinky dude with the snot dried on his face a coffee with out judgement, okay-dokay
i think a need a drink! party up!
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