that stuck me funny and immediately i was snapped back to the past yr. to the above pic. aren't those 2 boys just the bestest buddies? see how they adore each other? arms commented smiling so perfect at the camera in their matching p.js?
truth be told, about 10 seconds before the pic was taken i was yelling at nathaniel for not doing what i had asked him to do, then i got more frustrated when the kid refused to take a pic of their matching p.j's for papa who had just had his heart attack and was able to be there
after i yelled, chris came over and told him to be quiet, stand still and smile. the boys did and we got this great pic of them
3 seconds after the click of the camera quinn and nate got into a fight and hit each other
picture perfect people! picture perfect!
lets be honest! pictures lie! they are not real! they don't share the before and after picture! we tend to post the good and leave the bad...trust me i am not even clear close to having it together i fail daily, i struggle, i cry, i yell, i get sad and discouraged. i am not and no where near above any line of someone who has it together. i don't!
i often lay in bed at night and reflect over the day and want to rewind and do over most of it! and i am not even talking about home school! i should start a new blog about that!
i just know this. i am not alone in this, god is with me and chris is at my side, my side ppl not a head or behind but with me. even thou chris is not home a lot, i have his support by phone, text, mess etc and that is so helpful!
i have real friends that i am real with. a weekly coffee with a trust worthy, insightful, godly women can change my focus, encourage me, lighten my load and make me feel that i am not alone in this mommy journey. because you know what? being a mom is hard, whether you have 1 child or 10. it's hard. it's taxing, tiring, discouraging and lonely at times
i found this a few wks back and thought it was perfect!
enjoy!
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