seriousness!

nate is napping, the house should be cleaned or maybe i should finish one of the 12 projects i have laying around. but no, i want to blog

the other night i just discovered the neatest thing evar and after trying to explain it to chris, i thought i would try and blog it so he can "get it". ha!

remember the story of hannah and pen-pen (as i like to call her) no? recap!

hannah and penpen are hitched to the same dude
pen-pen pops kidlets out like nothing, hannah no. she can't she's barren

barren in those days was the worst shame you could have. today's shame would be like having your most private thing (sex?gossip? temper tantrum? stealing? etc...just some thoughts) played on youtube, facebook, twitter, blogger and hey! why not playing on a monitor on your back...so everyone can know!

everyone knows your most deepest pain
everyone talks about it
behind your back? or to your face? (like pen-pen)

pen pen is nasty, mean and cruel. she would taunt hannah. like. all. the. time...i can laterally hear her


"hannah! girl can you toss me the diaper bag, my arms are so full of kids. you know kids? why don't you have those? god said to multiply, what are you doing wrong? look at me, enviously i am doing it right. see me? elk just thinks i am the best cook, the best wife and well he can't keep his hand off of me....see all these kids? maybe your doing something wrong girl! hummmm maybe he thinks your ugly and just not into you! or maybe i can please him in bed...i am just so blessed to have all these kids.....maybe i should pray for you! or maybe there is something deeper wrong with you...." etc etc etc etc

day in
day out

hannah girl was worn down, beat down low

then the yr's church family conference time came and this yr hannah decided to go

imagine how hard that was! walking and listening to penpen all. the. way. there

i think hannah, in her (dar i say) depression and disparate had nothing else to do. no where else to go. so she took her brokenness to shiloh.

why?

for comfort and the presence of her god

imagine. the woman is humiliated, mocked and well low. she talks to god. pouring her misry and pain out to him
not caring how she looked. have you ever been so desperate you would do anything to get an answer?

there is the midst of the presence of god. in the middle of pleading with god "give me a child and i will give him to you!"

the bishop pastor leader big god guy saw her

he called her a drunk! seriously the girl is in the PRESENCE of god, shouldn't a godly man discern this? he calls her out saying stop drinking woman! have you no shame (or something like that)

instead of freaking out and not yelling "you big baboon! how can you NOT see that i am crying out to god! you are suppose to the the priest here! should you know this? you are WAY off the target and not only that you are mean, cruel and heartless to even accuse me of this thing, what kind of spiritual leader are you?????"


nope. she says "no my lard, i am is deep distress for i want a baby and i came to seek (beg?)god for this dream/need/prayer to happen"

she spoke with respect and honour to her spiritual father
he prayed that her request would come to pass

she then left shiloh

no where did i find that she left shiloh and told all her friends what happened, or gossiped, sent some nasty emails and blogged about her side of the story nor did she openly talk against her leader, even thou the dude was out to lunch. she gave him the respect his title was

did she agree? no!
did she talk against him?no!

then what happens?

the girl pees on a stick and voila! 2 lines!!! she's having a baby!

god answered her prayers!

why???

maybe it had something to do with how she handled herself, the self control displayed in "keeping this to herself" the honour she chose to give to the man of god who was placed over her, to spiritually protect and direct her. agreed or not. she acted honourably

THEN it's time to follow up and pay up the boy child

i think about this a lot. eli (the not on the spiritual ball priest) was not doing the right thing, his kids were way out of order, they were like bad. really bad (lets have sex outside the church bad) eli did not obey god, do what he was suppose to, he basically let everyone do what ever they wanted, corrected no one and took his chances (which for the record are bad....like god refused to forgive him check it at 1 sammy 3:13-14)

sometimes i ask god, would he really be mad if she didn't give her son up to this horrible, evil guy? i dunno...

anyways. she did. hannah took her (i am guessing 3ish) baby boy, her gift, her miracle and gave him to eli........to raise!!! which is scary cause eli sucks at kid raising, remember how bad he messed his up!

but no worries, god's hand is on his life and he, well changes history...but still! as a mom, would you could you????

my point?

honour god
honour your spiritual pastor
god will honour you!

(shocked that this is nothing about me wanting more babies?!?)

Posted by mel at 1:10 PM