my child listen to what I say,
and treasure my commands.
tune your ears to wisdom,
and concentrate on understanding.
cry out for insight,
and ask for understanding.
search for them as you would for silver;
seek them like hidden treasures.
then you will understand what it means to fear the Lord,
and you will gain knowledge of God.
for the Lord grants wisdom!
From his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
he grants a treasure of common sense to the honest.
He is a shield to those who walk with integrity.
he guards the paths of the just
and protects those who are faithful to him.
then you will understand what is right, just, and fair,
and you will find the right way to go.
for wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will fill you with joy.
wise choices will watch over you.
understanding will keep you safe. i read the above on sat, wanted to blog it but ran out of time. 3 days later i read it, after going thought the past 24 hrs and realising that understanding wisdom, knowing god, provided protection and to speak understanding and knowledge from my own mouth. while sitting in the emergency room, unable to find a heart beat, bleeding. waiting. waiting
last night, after an amazing secret planned date from chris. which i will blog later, i came home, drove the babysitter home. had a snack, got ready for bed. and saw the blood
the exact same blood as before
i called chris to get up stairs
he came and saw the blood
we called a friend, who came over around 10:30 to be with nate. thank god for friends. thank god for friends who pray, drop everything and watch my son! what a blessing!
we went to the hospital, after waiting and registering we were shown to our room. i saw the clock. it was 11:30 (not bad timing v!) we were asset by the dr and then they tried to find the heart beat, after 15 mins no heart beat was found
the dr left to get the specialist
i sat on the bed
every thought ran through my head, i felt that i was split in 2. i didn't know what way to go. so i believe and hope for the good? dream and stay focused. believe that the baby is alive?
or do i carefully plan and prepare myself for the worst. start to run through my mind the events that would take place...would i have to deliver again? when would this happen?
or do i beg god for mercy, throw every last i promise i will do better if you just give me this one last thing? thoughts of "how can i go through this again? how will i face my pregnant friends? how ever will i get over this? where are you god? what have i done?"
i asked chris what to do. where should i put my thoughts? he said this, with tears in his eyes "i don;t know mel, my heart says nothing. but i do know that god told me that we would have another child, i heard him say it, we heard p.peter speak over our baby, this is all i know"
i sat there and stared at the floor. i thought to myself....god, i don;t know the future. i don;t know whey this is happening again, i don't know what's going to happen. but i do know this, you didn't leave me the first time, you won't leave me this time. only you can help me right now. please save my baby but if things are bad, give me the strength to live again"
chirs then pulled out his phone and started to read ps 23. which freaked me out! out off all the things to read, he randomly picked the chapter that i have been teaching nate! he had NO idea about this and as he read it, i listened, not as a mom sitting in the er facing another dark night but as a mother listening to the words she said to her own son
the lord is my Shepard (mine, no one elses) he's all i needhe leads me besides the green pastures (he gives me peace to sleep)he leads me to quiet watershe restores my soulhe guides me in paths of righteousness ...he's with me!
for his name’s sake.
even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death...i am going to walk through this! BUT
i will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
you prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
foreverforever. no matter. foreverwe then read ps 91 until the dr came back. i was then given an internal, poked some more, and the specialist went to find the heart beat. i held my breath
5 mins later, which felt like hours
bump, bump, bump, bump 148 beats per min
my baby's heart beat!
after having some blood tests run, a painful shot of winrow (sp?) we left the hospital at 2 am, to return this morning for an ultrasound
we left knowing it could be these following situations
1-miscarriage
2-placenta problems. tearing, holes, slipping or detaching. this is how we lost ben
3-small hole in the placenta and the cervix, my blood and the baby's blood was mixed. the shot will prevent us from losing the baby
we went home. went to bed. and i slept in peace. woke up at 8 to the ultrasound tec, my appoint was for 10:30. i got up and got ready, i asked god for a understanding tec
10:20 i was in the ultrasound room. the tec knew our history and 2 seconds into it, she pulled the screen down and said "heart beat!" then proceeded to spend the next 40 mins showing us every part of the baby. everything is perfect. then, to make it better, she put the camera on live and just let us watch the babe move, we saw hands, legs, kicking, lots of movement
the only part she was not able to share was the placenta/cervix results, we go in thurs for those
i am so pleased with how i responded. tested and proven i thinks! i am taking redic care of myself now, no lifting, no heavy work, lots of rest
i am thankful for so much today. so much
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yep, you need tools to build with blocks ya know
and drilling is a must
there's the belly. i have one! love my mat skirt? ha. lovely looking cream colored band? it's actually the most comfy skirt ever! love it
i look redic in the pic but posted it cause nate looks so adorable. he's very excited about the baby. ha
another shot
on the way out the door i came across this. i asked nate what it was. he said "it's my zoomer car and my armour to keep all the bad ppl away. the pillows are a part of the obstacle course that i use to help me train to be a better zoomer" ha! love the creativeness!
yesterday we did the solar system. i had nate color the planets while i read about them, the cut and glue them kinda in order. ha. he LOVED this.
he wanted me to take a picture of him holding the solar system where his head is so "people will think space is my face. get it!?! space and face rhyme"
this am before church
the belly
so, i've been buying frozen eggo's for nate. he loves them. i know they are not the healthiest thing to eat, so i decided to find a great recipe for pancakes, and after some tweaking and removing sugar, butter, eggs and oil...ha. i came up with this banana choc chip recipe. nate and i made them together
you can't really see his face but he bit into it and said "oh mommy, this is SO good. it's better than the store eggos!" and proceeded to eat 2. they are ubber yum!
yesterday was q
making his q's in his book
great job buddy!
this was from the g day. we got Grandmother, granola bar, game and girls. nate does the cutting and gluing. ha
then it was time to cut out the match game, which i turned into a math class...count how many pics, how many different ones, then take a few away and what do you have? it was more of a fun activity. it kept him busy for almost an hour
today is v-day. or as i use to call it happy heart break day
i snuck in last night to tuck my boy in and found this. i grabbed my camera and got a blurry shot. this is how he rolls at night, kitty from quinn, blankets for aunte (note that he wraps it around his neck! and has since he could do it!) and the leapster on his chest, freddy is under the blanket behind his head
this morning
yeah for 16 weeks
another party another bag of treats
another package of cookies
today was the lutes mtn preschool valentines party. yesterday nate and i made cupcakes together, nate decorated them all by himself. i was quiet impressed
"i worship you oh cupcakes, there is none like you"
holding his cupcakes
he rang the bell to start school
then lead us in a round of oh canada
and the month and did the count for the days
and he did some reading on the way home. he picked out a science kit that he wants. i told him he has 5 dollars saved up in his peggy bank, i told him he could do some extra chores for the other 5 and earn it. he agreed to this plan
yep, i am popping. i also got this nasty purple stretch mark that got all red. as shown in the above pic. ewwwww
this am. nate wanted to be in the pic. i stepped on the scale up another 2 pounds. this WEEK. this is redic! i am scared for the next few weeks! i've noticed that my face has chubbed up a lot. but other than that, all is well. no movement yet but it's a bit early for that. 
after lunch i went to make lunch, nate went into the back room and i made myself busy, making lots of noise...then i called out for him and he didn't respond. off i went to check on him and looky look at what i found....who's cute butt is sticking out?
sleepy "i am not tired" nate
he slept for 2.5 hrs. nope. not tired at all! love how the remotes are at his head. ha. when he woke up he called me to come and sit with him i said "hey, look who slept all afternoon!" nate said "i did not sleep, i just had my eyes closed for a few minutes" ha. sure. right...just like your dad!
nate doing his daily laps around the house
in his "safety" clothes bawahhhh
yea he loves his gift aunty cry! i cant wait to have it out of the house come spring!
but not before this mama got the van going after it would not start. it took for ever but nate's response to the van finally starting was the best "mom! you did it! you are so smart! you better tell daddy you got the van to go!"
trina, gage, weston, nate, shan and noz (nelson)
totally into the book reading
chris was sent home early from work due to the snow. it started snowing during the night and hasn't stopped yet!
seriously? what is more adorable and attractive than a dad and his boy?
cheers!
