A Pair of Shoes
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
Author Unknown
i don't normally like on line poems or stuff i come across on grieving and what not but this poem was cool so i thought i would post it
the part i agree with is the last. i am stronger bec of it, i faced fears (and still do) but i did it with boat loads of help. i will forever be a mom who lost a child, i will be used because of it. for my god
it's not who i am
but
it has helped make me into the person i am today
He gives strength to those who grow tired and increases the strength of those who are weak is 40:29
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i bought nate these seeds but with all the RAIN i haven't had a chance to plant them so we did the next best thing
we started them inside and we will transplant (sounds so serious haha) them in a week or two
he did it all by himself, not that bad of a job or mess for me to clean up!
naw just a little father son bonding time as chris teaching nate the "R" sound...up against the house
"RRRRRRR"
what ever works for ya...ha
love it
adorable much? i love this kid
look ma no hands! ha
duck feeding time!
all by himself...lala
some library toys
puppet play
puppet nate!
then he took turns putting on puppet plays with some other kids
puzzle table
and back outside to play in the public fountain...oops?...haha
today was a productive day! chris planed a bunch of trees while i mowed, cleaned cars and the garage. i am so stoked about our trees! 
nate helping chris get the garden ready
digging, digging, digging
no clue what tree this is, but i love it!
another tree, again no clue what kind
cherry tree! now we have 2! we also go a 5 kind apple tree, the large tree in the middle (top pic) is going to grow 5 diff kinds of apples! yeah! stoked baby!
freeloader that boy is! i can't get over how much we got done today but mercy man! i am tired. it's was a great work day!
bawahhhh how could i not snap a shot of this? we sat in our seats and there on the ground was a wet floor sign...bawaahhhhhh we laughed so much i thought s's water would break. ha. so girls, i think the sunday afternoon movie is a great idea, who wants to make it 3 in a row? hah!
nate was showing me the pine cones on the trees in the back yard
the trees are growing!
love this pic. to feel the delight of a child again
climbing nates new play structure
someone was in a rush when he got dressed
love it!
