it's all fun and games

dental detestment

i spent

most of my morning having dental work done. lucky monday morning me. i am grateful for COVERAGE yikes!!!!

as i was laying there in the chair freaking out as the needles went in, my heart was pounding, i was fighting the fear and panic ( i detest dentistry) i heard that voice in my heart say

"face your fear, turn it into your strength" (heb 11)

so i did. i asked the dentist to show me what he was doing and he did! my dentist gave me a mirror and stopped about 12 times to show me what was happening and explained everything to me

i found myself relax and felt calm. in a dentist chair!

i thought super cool god!

i heard "that's how it should be. face it, with me. there is no place for fear"

hummmmm lesson from the dental chair

unfortunately, i had 2 procedures done, freezing my face and as the numbness is wearing off, the pain in coming :( i hate sore teeth....boo!

that's my monday in a but shell

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Posted by mel at 12:55 PM

the cycle

2 weeks of living life, somehwat normal...haha

ohhhh what's that? ohhhh chris quick it's time

10 days later

the self check starts

acne break out? it could be

sore back? ohhhhh

hormones??? maybe?....

bloating? too many chips last night? ha

sore boobs? just from my constant poking.....

is it?

could it be???

is this the month?

go to sleep, dreaming of +'s

waking up to reality

the walk of shame mixed with sorrow from the bathroom to chris

"sorry babe, were out"

back to bed. me on my side. chris on his. backs facing each other. each lost in private thoughts

i deal with the cycle all over again

why? why god why?

what did i do wrong? what should i do better?

anger. god where are you???

rage. i am SO mad (*&^*^%^$%&^%

hurt. god, hold me. i hurt

acceptance.ok. so we are out. move on

heart talk. clean out the negative stuff. no room for bitterness

sadness. tears. breaking.

reaching out to the back facing me, it's time to come together. time to share. time to listen to his thoughts. time to hold each other. time to remind us that we are not alone. we have each other. time to smile and remind each other what we do have. time to pray. time to talk to god. time to hug. hold. support and love each other

this month is over. it's gone. it's done

tomorrow is another one

don't remember the old days, look ahead on what's coming

babies or no babies. it's ok

it's all going to be ok

take this cycle and repeat. weeks. months. years...

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Posted by mel at 9:16 AM

roofing!

just an adorable boy, chilling down town, sporting his rubber boots

then it was time to do some serious roofing with daddy

taking the time to explain to nate how this was going to go down, with all the safely stuff

he listened and repeated all the rules and instructions

step one

higher

almost there

chris held him as he maneuvered himself around the ladder

up, up they go

this is to let all the grandparents and others who think we are crazy (we are) chris was in total control the whole time

"i did it!"

and he loved it!

my 2 men, up on a roof

chris and i talked last night and we decided to bring nate up on the roof. he was SO excited today. it was almost all he talked about (he also talked about quinn, n/p, food and disney...you know typical stuff) i know that chris loves to take risks and do crazy stuff but he always makes sure it's ok, that he is in control. chris calls them "calculated risks"

and as normal, i went along with it!

ha!

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Posted by mel at 6:16 PM

another day another playday

"whacha wanna build today?"
nate and weston discussing what to do

how many boys can get on a car?

i see 3, next yr there will be 4 (s's new born)

poor little dude, as hard as he worked he just couldn't get the car to move but that was ok, he was quite content chilling in his car

the newest little builder, 2 wks. sooooooooo cute!

after the boys left, i let nate run in the sprinklers to clean off, then he had some berries (check out his adorable much eye lashes awwwww)

then it was time to get back to work at the new job site. helping daddy build the shed

my 2 men, working away

i love my perfect, little family!

no play for tomorrow, this mommy has house work and yard work to get caught up with!

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Posted by mel at 7:52 PM

would it be wrong?

to wish i was indian so i could wear these?

or maybe i need to come up with a way that i can

seriously! i love me some indian clothing
so fun and full of color

maybe i should host an indian party? we can all come in costume!
who's in?!

love it!

don't even ask how i got onto this train of thought

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Posted by mel at 2:13 PM

natey and matty

the sun busted out and we busted out the shades

then it was sand box time but the car got stuck

no problem! after some intense discussion and superior conversation/problem solving skills the car was fixed and ready to go again

or was it just simply abandoned?

one is chilling one is working on the construction site

gimme! mine! i want! meeeeeeeeeee!

close up

bawahhhh

the funny thing is they weren't really fighting over it, they were quiet about it, i just happened to look up and see it

the boys played inside for the morning(STUPID COLD, STUPID RAIN!) then moved outside in the afternoon when the sun finally came out

both boys played very well together and hopefully they will both CRASH tonight!
another day another play date

who said that only kids get bored? haha

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Posted by mel at 6:03 PM

typically tues!

he's doing his fake smile (this was taken yesterday)

chris-how he's grown!

today we had a fun filled morning with v's kidlets (some of them) ha! and miss cutie pants slept through it...

my ovaries! oh how they hurt! v is still fostering sweet cheeks!

ms a did some play doh making

then we moved on to tower building!

they worked SO well together! there was not 1 fight, i swear they are prepping for the future!

then after the tower was built. the armour was put on (safety first ya' alls'!)

and down the tower came!